Now that 2016 is in full swing, it has hit me hard that I will be turning 35 in less than six months. Turning 30 didn’t bother me, if fact I was happy to say goodbye to my 20’s, but the thought of turning 35 is somewhat scary to me. But Why? Maybe it’s the fact that in my head I am nowhere near where I should be, life wise, at that age. I fully expected that I would at least be in a steady relationship, on the path to marriage by then, or that I would have my career path figured out, or that I’d own my own place.
I fully believe that God has a plan for all us and that I am at least, physically, where I need to be. The rest however is unsettling. I feel like I’m going through a mid-life crisis, only in my thirties. Instead of going out and buying some flashy car or diamond earring, I am sitting thinking up ways to change things up. Do I need to change my day job? Do I need to re-brand the blog? Do I need to fully change my image? What I am doing wrong and why is everything moving in slow motion? These are the thoughts that keep me up at night.
For now, I guess I will follow my gut and see where the path ahead of me leads. I’ve never been one to take a big leap of faith, but at some point I think I’m gonna need to just take a deep breath and leap and pray there is some kind of safety net below to catch me.
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